An Unfiltered Take on Self-Acceptance with Kaitlyn Herman
Episode 010
0:06 - Manifestation and Healing
9:04 - Navigating Negativity in Life
13:31 - Navigating Self-Love, Validation, and Public Opinion
23:06 - Finding Alignment, Letting Go of Game Mentality
35:48 - Manifesting Health and Overcoming Chronic Pain
45:28 - Embracing Possibility and Accepting Pain
51:41 - Separating Identity From Health Conditions
57:01 - Reflection on Parenthood and Manifestation
1:09:03 - Thanking Travelers and Requesting Reviews
Manifestation, self-love, and healing are transformative tools that can fundamentally alter our reality. In this captivating episode of the Destination Manifestation podcast, host Brittany Hoopes and guest Kaitlyn Herman delve into these powerful mechanisms. Kaitlyn, a gifted Life Coach and former Big Brother 20 Houseguest, shares her personal journey from experiencing chronic pain and illness to using manifestation to turn her health and wellness journey around.
The belief that our thoughts and beliefs shape our reality forms the backbone of this enlightening discussion. Both Brittany and Kaitlyn serve as living proof of the power of positivity and mindfulness in altering the outcome of their lives. Their shared experiences provide a compelling insight into the healing process and the role of public opinion in shaping your self-image.
The episode also explores the importance of having a secure personal foundation and self-love in achieving your goals. Kaitlyn emphasizes the liberating feeling of letting go of the need for external validation and discusses the concept of finding alignment. This shift in perspective is portrayed as a necessary step towards moving beyond a ‘game mentality’ for life and inviting in profound changes into our lives.
One of the key aspects of the episode is the discussion on navigating negativity. The role of manifestation in creating a positive life and the power of positive affirmations are explored in detail. Both Brittany and Kaitlyn offer practical advice on how to handle negativity in life and take control of our thoughts to manifest the things you want.
The topic of chronic pain is handled with sensitivity and empathy. Katilyn shares her inspiring story of overcoming health challenges using manifestation techniques. This episode underscores the importance of separating our identities from our health conditions and viewing our bodies as vessels of our souls.
The conversation also touches on the role of parenthood in manifestation. The episode concludes with a discussion on the importance of spiritual practice in disconnecting from physical or mental health diagnoses and accepting our current situation, while still allowing for the possibility of change.
This enlightening episode is a treasure trove of insights on life, health, and healing. It provides valuable tools for those seeking to transform their reality and invites listeners to embark on a journey that will change the way they perceive reality and interact with the world around them. Whether you are a manifestation enthusiast or someone seeking ways to navigate life's challenges, this episode offers a wealth of wisdom and practical advice.
In a world where negativity often seems to overshadow positivity, the insights shared by Brittany and Kaitlyn offer a refreshing perspective. They remind us of the power we hold within ourselves to shape our reality and the importance of cultivating self-love and a secure personal foundation. They inspire us to embrace our bodies, separate our identities from our health conditions, and step into the realm of infinite possibilities.
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I'd like you to imagine your dream life, see the version of you who has what you want to have, feels how you want to feel and is who you want to be. I'm Brittany Hoops, your hypnotherapist and manifestation coach, and this is the show where I'll teach you to master the full power of your mind to guide you on your journey towards destination manifestation. Welcome back to destination manifestation. I'm your host, brittany Hoops. How are you doing, you guys? This is our final episode before Halloween. Happy Halloween to you. Are you a big Halloween person? I don't know, I'm not. I don't go that far out. I will say I love handing out candy to the kids in our neighborhood. They're so cute. Two years ago we had 35 trick-or-treaters. I keep a note in my phone so I remember Last year we had 36. So I'm hoping for a clean 37 this year. That would make my heart happy. So let me tell you this If you're already subscribed to the show thank you so much. You're literally the best.
And today we have another manifesty bestie for you. It is the Caitlyn Herman life coach and former house guest on Big Brother 20. So it's actually kind of crazy. So I have a funny story for you. So I was on my computer the other day. I was looking through some old paperwork and I had always had it in my head that I had made it to semifinals for BB17. I think I told you guys it'd take me seven different years of applying to make it on Big Brother and the only other year that I ever heard any feedback was when I made it to semifinals and then I got cut right before finals. I don't know why. I always had it in my head that it was BB17, but I actually looked at the date and did the math for my paperwork and actually it was for BB20.
So Caitlyn and I, in another timeline, could have met each other sooner than we actually did, but the universe figured out a different way to bring us together anyways and honestly I think that's just so beautiful. You know, I don't think we probably would have ever been cast on the same season anyways, because usually there's only like one spiritual person in a cast. I probably would have been like her slot or maybe Sam slot from that season. She was kind of like quirky and southern, you know. Regardless, I did not make the cut and they did, and I had to wait my turn till BB24, but it's just kind of funny to think that that could have been the case.
But in this episode I go deep with Caitlyn about what the healing process looks like five years out from Big Brother, how you can manifest health after experiencing chronic pain and chronic illness, and we both talk about some really big things that we're both manifesting next and what we're using our kind of spiritual toolkit that we're using to manifest these next chapters in our lives. And what I really love about this conversation is that Caitlyn, she just gets it. You know, because she's a life coach herself, it was really kind of fun from two. You know, I'm a coach. She's a coach to bring these perspectives. She just really understands the power of shifting your perspective and really opening your mind up to new possibilities. That's a lot of what we talk about here and that's exactly the kind of work we do through the brain training in my one-on-one hypnotherapy and coaching programs.
I often like to think of those coaching programs kind of like personal training. It's like personal training but instead of building up your physical muscles it's building up your mental muscles and actuality. It's kind of it's more like a good stretching routine. You ever, you know, I used to be a cheerleader in high school. You know I worked on my splits again and again and again. This repetition is stretch out these muscles, right. And that's kind of what this work is like, you know. It's like stretching the brain While building up those new neural networks so that you can believe in new possibilities for yourself.
I sort of think of like a brain that hasn't experienced hypnotherapy or coaching, as kind of like really stiff and rigid. It's kind of like that person you know that you know, bends over and can't even touch their toes. You know they're very, they're stiff. There's only a certain range of mobility of their muscles, right. There's only a certain range of mobility of what they can believe about themselves and what's possible in their life. And so when you're stuck in one set of beliefs or one way of seeing yourself, you become very stiff and rigid in this way.
But by training and by stretching and practicing new ways of being, these new beliefs become stronger, your possibilities expand. And then that's when the beautiful, the fun part happens. The things in your life begin to manifest around you, they begin to change. Because here's the thing when your brain expands, when you stretch your possibilities, so too does the world around you. That's why, when you have a limited mindset, you only manifest very little, very little of what you want. When you have a big, open, expanded, stretched out, built up mindset, that's when you can manifest big things. Oh, and it's truly a beautiful thing. And so I love that Caitlin understands that and starts to speak through some of that stuff. We dive deep into all of that in today's episode. So what do you say? Let's jump on in Caitlin, hello.
How are you doing this morning? I'm so excited that we get to do this. It's good for us to catch up once a quarter.
I agree with that. I agree with that so hardly. I'm kind of just having a little bit of a moment Because we've talked before and we've even FaceTime. But I don't think you ever get over the fact, if you're a fan of Big Brother, getting to talk and be friends with people that you used to fangirl over. It still blows my mind which, speaking of this, somebody asked I put out a little question box before this interview of questions Somebody wanted to know how we met, how we got connected.
I mean, of course it's like through Big Brother, but they wanted to know more of that story and so I was curious do you mind if I tell a quick story of how we met, even though I will say this story does not paint me in the best light? Like I'm going to be honest with this story. Okay, are you fine with this? Okay, so I get a message from you. I'm fresh out of the Big Brother house, right, it's early October, it's about a year ago. Fresh out of the Big Brother house, I get a DM from Caitlin and I literally looked it back up because I wanted to say it exactly. She says Hi, sweets, I know you didn't necessarily love me, lol, but the light in me, noticed the light in you immediately.
Okay, guys, I want you to know, my mind was like going crazy. First of all, I'm like, oh my gosh, caitlin Hermans and my DMs this is so exciting, right, the fan of me. And then I'm like what the F did? I say Like what? My mind's racing? I'm trying to go back through like 24, seven of three months, of every little thought I might have uttered out loud. And here's what I still don't know what I said, so you'll have to tell me if you remember. But I know what I probably was thinking was I thought I was a super fan of Big Brother.
I was not. I was not a super fan, I was what they would call a casual, someone who watched 20 years worth of just the TV and, as we know, big Brother are really any reality TV. Right, they got to put you in this box to make you digestible and to make you this like quote unquote character, and I think I interpreted from the TV show of you being this like meditation, california, and I felt like it was like make Big Brother was like making fun of that. And as somebody who loves spirituality and loves meditation, loves all these things, I was like not too keen on that. Of course. Look at me.
Who was I? I was the quirky hypnotist that belly dances, right, like I was this character too. But what really kind of took me over was like the fact that you were just like so, so nice and so sweet and like offered me so much grace and you'll have to correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like you might have no like you knew what I hadn't yet learned yet, which is like in the house, every single little thought or little thing is dissected and out there and you don't really know the gravity of what you say and how everyone can hear. I don't know, I'm just curious your thoughts.
What was going through your mind. You even like say that and reflect on that, because I honestly don't remember what, but hearing you repeat that makes it's a point of reflection for me because, yeah, why did I even need to say that, like why I'm so glad you did? No, but you know what's interesting, though, because if I really at that point, if I really like knew who I was and loved myself and like it's all a process and it's all a journey and whatever We've all been, you know, better than we were a year ago, in some respect, like if I really I didn't need to say I know you're not a fan of me Like that hearing now, like today's Caitlin is like huh, that's so fascinating that you even why couldn't I have just said the light and me sees the light in you and like I am so happy.
No, I think I think, if we're talking about manifestation, I think I manifested that through you, because that was literally the biggest thing. I Caitlin, I'm not kidding and I talked to a lot of alum after the show, like we all did right, like that, I needed to hear that. I needed to hear like, oh no, but I must have said something, because I know how I feel about you and how I've always felt about you is not like, oh, I don't like her.
But it is different. You know, because, no, I totally agree, because, like, let's be clear, like the representation that CBS gave me was fairly accurate, which is even scarier because it wasn't great, right, but that's who I was at that moment and that's like where it was.
But, similarly to what you then experienced, you've realized that, like when they throw you in the box of like the quirky hypnotist, you almost like take it on, like you do, because that's how you get on the show, like, let's just be honest, like you need to know who you are, but not like who you are as a dimensional human, like who you are, surface level. And so, yes, I am a quirky hypnotist. Like that is true. I'm a belly dancer, that is true. Is that all of me? No, is that the totality of me? No. And so, no, I'm Caitlin. I am serious, I am. So.
I mean, if I'm being like selfish here, I'm so glad you said that to me because it was the first time and I was fresh out of the house, right, it was the first time that I realized, oh no, something that I said either was hurtful or was interpreted as hurtful or whatever it might have been, and that was not my intention. This is what life might be like now, Like I hadn't. I was so new out of the house I hadn't really realized that, and so that was the biggest gift, like, honestly, that was the biggest gift. And, of course, like we faced, timed afterwards, and it was so much fun, and that's why it was so nice. It was like, oh my God, like we got to know each other, like on a real human, like not watching via a TV screen level and I was like, oh my gosh, she is like she's like all my friends Like she's like like so wonderful and I don't know. I just think it was. I relate.
I relate. I relate Like, trust me, the same thing happened. I was here's. The other thing, though, brittany, like when you're in the house, obviously you know. Now you're with all these strangers, and the only thing, for the most part, that you guys have in common is the fact that most of you have watched previous seasons.
So it's like it's a human thing, Like shit talking friends or like talk not even shit talking, just talking about people. So when all you guys have in common are previous people, it makes sense, and of course, I had to learn that the hard way too. I said some gnarly things about past alumni when I was on the show. Nothing that was like about people's character X, y or Z, no, mostly, just like you know things that have insecurity, like just you know, just random shit. But your experience is so. It reminds me of when I went on to season 21 to host a competition.
Yeah, I had known prior to walking in the house that like Christy really didn't like me. She was very vocal about the fact that like apparently, like I was putting a bad name on spirituality, she didn't like the way I moved to X, y, z, whatever, not a big deal, but after I had like left, I guess, spending some time with them and like whatever she was saying on the feeds, like I feel like the biggest asshole of all time because, like I've never met like a nicer, more like light person and I think that that's that's the moral of the story, is that that's for all of us, every single person, whether you're a dick on the show, whether we all are part of something which connects us Like that's. That's likeable to be fair.
So here's my like actual question, right Like, whether it's big brother, whether it's anything like how do you handle negativity in life? You find yourself surrounded by negative opinions Like what's? How do you?
handle it. Brittany, it's exactly kind of like what you were saying before. Like you're, it's natural, it's human to have opinions about people that you're watching on TV or just in general life, but nine times out of 10, for the most part, when you have an actual interaction with the person, it really is mold over for them. For the most part, like, unless it's a really like extreme circumstance, until the person actually knows you and knows your heart and knows your intentions and X, Y and Z, I just don't really care about what someone says, because I really they. You don't know me, you really just don't know me, and I think a lot of that, though, comes with like, how do you have the strength to just like be so sure of yourself and you know, if you, like, you begin to kind of believe the things that people will say when you don't have a solid foundation of like, who am I, what are my values? Do I love myself?
And you know that takes a while if you don't, but like I do at this point in my life and I think I always have, like I have a very strong knowing of who I am, even when the person I know I am is like damage and like kooky and whatever, like the things that I've had to deal with, at least I know. Like if someone says something that's like out of pocket, it doesn't, it doesn't make a difference, yeah.
Here's my thing I don't feel like I believe I totally am on the same page with you, that I don't feel like I believe what the people say. So I feel like I know who I am. Where I still get tripped up on this is like I know who I am and I want you to know who I am. You are wrong person. How do you feel that? How do you let go of that desire? I feel like that's the. You know how we always talk about healing in layers after Big Brother. That's the layer of healing. A year out that I'm at, I'm good with myself. I don't believe the outside stuff. I just have this overwhelming desire for you to understand what I know about me.
It's like the justice warrior complex of like you really wanting people to understand, like who you are, that you're correct with your opinion, and that all comes from a sense of validation. It goes back to self love. It's like if I really knew who I was, if I really was firm in my belief that this is who I am, nothing can shake it, then it does not matter what anyone else thinks. But that's very difficult because self love is layered and validation is layered and there comes points where people find the need to defend themselves and it gets to the point where it's like what are you defending? So what's why, if you know your X, Y and Z, what is the pull to continue? After you've addressed onward and onward? It would be like you trying to convince yourself of something.
Yeah, yeah, I so resonate with all of that and that's been the kind of like, just to be completely honest, like where I'm at right now. That's been the kind of like, mindset sort of shifts I've been making is like we all live in our own realities, like we just do.
Like, our own perception is our own reality, and so I cannot control the realities of all those people out there, and there's many realities that I'm very happy with. There are plenty of people who think very kindly in my game and I appreciate their realities. There are other realities that I'm like somehow wanting to control. I can't control them. All I can control is my perception and my reality, and so I know what kind of game I'm proud of myself, and I think that's what it ultimately came down to. And I was like that experience was so hard and I think I did pretty doggone good, like all things, considering how hard it was. So it's like that I just and I feel good with that and so guess what? That's the reality I live in. I feel good with that, like let's move on.
Like the other realities can be out there and exist. You are so ahead of the game in so many ways, because I mean now I was on five years ago, which is like so fucking insane, sorry it doesn't feel like, even if somebody who watched it doesn't feel that long ago, like it doesn't even feel that long ago, it's not normal, but the jump between age 24 and 29 is so big and that's where I am now, where it's like kind of like what you said, like you think back, like you're proud of yourself for your game.
I have my whole cast. They can all say if anyone, if everyone separately, was interviewed like who found it worse out of like your cast, it's Caitlin. Caitlin. I literally did get it the worst out of public opinion, the oh my god, yeah, really.
I guess because I was always the casual, like I was always the, I wasn't in the you know the world. I mean I was stupid.
That's the thing People would say I'm stupid, I'm an idiot, like I'm easily manipulated. But the things that they were saying were partially true and the thing is like it gets to a point where, like in the beginning, when I first got off, there was a lot of not like outward embarrassment because I always, like, owned it and I would make a joke of, I would join the joke.
Yeah.
I mean I really would. But now it's like I can confidently say at this point, five years later, like I'm officially not embarrassed of my journey and what I went through. I think it was perfect quite literally in every way, Because while some people go on the show and, like you, can look back at your experience and you kind of replay the game over because the game was what you were in I was not on Big Brother for the game, like my big takeaway was much bigger and something that I had to go through on a personal level to like really see myself so, but also Brittany, like you were just on- Like you're loud, I will say I've done so many layers of healing but like it stills like.
This is crazy. That like this is still such a big part of my life. You don't prepare for yourself of how much Big Brother will continually be a part of your life, even after you've been on. You kind of think it's like, oh, that's done, but it's not done. But you know, like really, here's my question for you.
Yeah, well, it's not a question, but like kind of like an exercise. Sorry that I'm like coaching you. Yeah, no, this is good. Pretend honestly that it's five years from now and you're having this conversation from. You know another person, and another person is interviewing now the same thing that we're doing Someone is interviewing you. That was on the show last year and you had been on five years ago and you're talking about like things that have changed and who you are.
Where do you think you're going to be and see this experience in five years from now?
Like I mean I think that's so funny, Like even just you putting perspective the difference between being 29 versus 24, like even me, 29 and 24. Of course I'm 33 now, but like that's a huge difference. I could imagine having your 24. I wouldn't want my 24 on TV, like are you kidding me? So if I'm going to be five years from where I am now, I'm sure I wouldn't have wanted my what was 32 on TV. You know what I mean. You're going to grow just as a human.
Like I told myself I am not posting anything online about any house guests, like unless it's positive and rooting them on and this and that. And then I also told myself, like when the house is, at least for this next season, come out. Like I want to just let them know I'm there for them, because when people like you did that, like it meant a lot. Like in those moments when you need somebody who's going to be there, that's like understands but isn't in the game and like wasn't in your season, like it's just helpful to have those mentors, and so it's like OK, it's deciding who you want to be, you know it's deciding who you want to be.
Aside from that, it's also I mean, with any comment, if someone even else makes a comment it's also showing you the things that are deeply unhealed within yourself. And although one year you think is a long time, it's not a long time. You went through a very severe experience that was lovely in so many ways and let friendships and exposure and X, y and Z, but it's going to sit in your body for a very, very, very long time.
You know what I just realized yesterday. So this was so crazy. I just realized yesterday I was working with my coach right, and this is why coaching guys, caitlin, I can say very so important right, it helps. So I've done all this healing right. I felt like I was good, I'm like, well, I'm moving through life.
I had just realized yesterday that I was still treating like other aspects of my life, like I was still playing the game, so like I was, like I have noticed that since Big Brother I've been in such a high state of alert where I'm just like I'm like I don't know if I would call it anxiety, like with the capital A, but like just high alert. And I was like, oh man, like I wasn't this way before Big Brother. This is kind of interesting to me. I used to just be a lot more laid back and now I'm just kind of like, oh, my business and like, oh, starting a family and all these things like high alert, high alert, high alert. And I was like, oh, because when I was in the house it felt like life or death to me to win this game, to have this experience.
I really attached winning to the ability to start my family, like adoption costs and things like that. And I realized that I've carried I mean literally right. If you do something, 24, seven for three full months, you create new and old pathways within the brain, you create new habits of mind and being. And I realized that I was carrying out that playing like my business was like a game that you could either win or lose, or, you know, starting a family was a game that you either are pregnant or you're not. Win or lose, right All these things. And I was like, oh my gosh, like life is not like the game of Big Brother, like it's a lot more chill, it's a lot more you can just kind of be, you know.
Yeah, but whether you're on Big Brother or not, like that's very relatable, but like there are people that, even if they didn't play Big Brother, that's how they see things. It's either you achieve the thing you want or you don't. And it's like you're not allowing space for just like the in between surrender time where, like other things can happen. Like it's so fucked up, like what we do to ourselves. Kind of like if we're gonna use your example of like you associated winning with them, like having this money to start a family and continue, when it's like when you attach to that outcome, even though it's like a beautiful thing to manifest winning the game, you're like leaving out room for like 12,000 million, whatever other options that could be even better and get you even more money. Like you winning the 750 at the end would have been great, but like that's also so limiting to be. Like if I win this, then that's how I make the money when, like, there's other options no that was like literally attaching one.
So you have pretend you have a million different timelines, a million different hows, and I was attaching this one timeline connected to this one thing and I was just like that's the way it has to be and honestly, I like, now that I have this realization, like it's very fresh for me, like we're talking less than 24 hour realization, I was like I need to go take that to my hypnotherapist because I feel like I have this association that was very strong, that was built up of, like winning the game equals being able to have a family.
Here I am a year later, husband I have been trying, not pregnant yet and I'm like, oh my gosh, like I wonder if that has something to do with it. I wonder if I had associated those things so strongly that it's like I need to just kind of let that go because you're so right, those things do not inherently or not inherently connected, like I can have a family without having one big brother. Like that is not. But in my mind, like that was what it meant when I was in that house, it was like I'm gonna do this for my husband, I'm gonna do this for my family, like that was what kept me going, and I mean I honestly think it got me far in the game that like that mentality. But now it's like let it go, like let it go, it's not helping you at all.
And here's the other thing like I do live under the belief that, like Brinny, if you're supposed to have a child, you will have a child Like there is nothing that you can do that will get in the way of that. There's also nothing that you can be doing more of or less of. Like you're gonna have the kid. Like, in whichever form it happens, you might have one, you might have two, who fucking knows? But the soul, you guys already fucking signed it off, in my opinion. So like they're signed to me?
yep, they're stuck with me. So now it's like okay, and nobody's saying to stay like stagnant. But I do have this like theory that, like we all just need to be like doing less, like just way less because it's going, and that's not an excuse to be like lazy and not proactive, because we should all be proactive and motivated by the things that we want. But when it comes down to things like this, like pregnancy and finding your purpose or figuring out what your purpose is, like all of these things that are like we're waiting on a diagnosis, like these are things that like we really just there's nothing we can do that's gonna change us. Figuring this out.
So, yes, if there are medical things that need to go into place, take action on that, but then, like, while it's happening, just chill the fuck out because the process also that's happening for you like and this delay in your mind of like it's not happening soon enough or this or that, like the timeline in general that you have also created of like when it is sufficient and when do you want this child, is also very limiting, because in your mind you detach I want this child and I want it soon and I'm trying to make that happen, yet you're not considering the fact that, like this in between time is designed for whatever the highest good is. We don't know what that is Like. It was perfect.
And that makes so much sense. They're kind of just chilling and just like letting go and just like chilling out. I feel that now, when I unattach of this like game mentality, like I think I've been competitive for so long there was like there's winning, there's losing, there's right, there's wrong, and I see this a lot with my clients too that it's like. But when it's just, when it just is, like when life just is and you're just living, like that allows so much more, like curiosity and exploration and openness and like oh what? Like what is this time? Like I'm just, I'm just in it and it's not, like there's not, it releases that judgment on it, which isn't that the thing that's blocking it. I mean, I know this, I teach this.
You know like we know these things, but it's like to live them. You know? Here's this other thing, caitlin. So somebody was asking me, like, what other advice did you give? Like when I got out of the house and I was trying to remember our conversation, do you remember we talked about alignment in the big brother house, do you remember?
when we.
FaceTime, we were talking about alignment and how dang hard it is to stay in a place of alignment in an environment like the big brother house, like. So talk to me. How do you become energetically aligned these days, like when we think about alignment, being aligned to our higher self or you know the universe? What's that process like for you? What do you think about Like? What does alignment mean for you these days?
Yeah, well, to be quite transparent, like we are all capable of being aligned and we're all capable of not being aligned, and I think, for the most part, most of us experience like a shift of it, like multiple times a day.
And.
I am out of alignment a lot, but I think what differentiates maybe myself versus some other people is that my turnaround rate is like very high.
So how do you recognize when you're out, like, what does that look like for you, that awareness?
It's just like I'm like me, like like all the things the worst parts about yourself, like for the worst parts, it's just this shit that you like. If I'm out of alignment I'm a little bit more judgmental. I'm maybe acting on like fear-based thoughts I'm giving into like limiting beliefs. I'm a little bit harsher to like my parents, like when I'm out of alignment I'm just not who I feel, like I am in my soul and like in my best way. And unfortunately, I think life in general, like we are all I do believe that we're all born good and we're all born pure. And then life that's this earth school, this experience as human design, that like we are just in a constant state of trying to.
Marianne Williamson has a book called A Return to Love and it's basically the entire thing is like no, we're all, like we all come from this place of love. We all come from like our mother's uterus or a woman's uterus in general. And then like we come out here and we are grabbed in every direction and we're we have fucking shit all over us and we're disgusting and we're yelling and we're grabbing us and it's like we are introduced to fear the second we got here, the second, we got here, boom, I was a C-section baby and they cut my leg.
Okay, so I was a C-section, they cut my leg. Me and my mom have matching scars. I always say that's why I'm such a drama queen, because I literally like my first introduction to being human was like slice open your leg, little baby.
Like it's awful, Welcome here's earth.
Oh fuck, huh, that is so good. Is that awful?
So I resonate with that.
Yeah, like it's just like you're there.
Yeah, it's literally like here we are. Here's a cut on your leg, congrats.
Yeah, it's fucked, but like true, that is our entire lives.
I think is like trying to figure out, then, what alignment means to you, like what centered means to you, which is your birthright, it's where you come from, but noise and life and experiences kind of like fog it up.
So I just feel like, for me, the ways that I've become more aligned is so uniquely mine and it could resonate with some people, but, like the way that you find your own personal alignment is so uniquely yours, like, and the best way to figure out what that is is, I would really just say, like, figure out or write down the things that make you so implicitly happy, like next level fucking happy, whether it's like talking to a friend or like playing with an animal, whatever the hell. It is just kind of like make a list of those things that make you so happy so that maybe, when you feel overwhelmed, stress, like you're being an asshole to people, just go back to that list and be like what can I participate in right now? That would actually just like just put this whole mood around and then you just be aware of, like what works, what doesn't work, X, Y and Z.
I loved what you said early on here about like not feeling like you were being yourself or like the best version of you, like that being a sign of being out of alignment. Because that just like in my brain, like that was big brother for me, like I think the whole time I realized I'm not being myself, I don't feel true to myself. A big part of that was because I was hiding that I was a hypnotherapist and that is so much a part of me and my purpose and like who I am that like, looking back on it, like in hindsight, I would have never kept that. I would have let people judge me. Maybe I would have been targeted early. They would have thought I was hypnotizing them, but I think I genuinely think that they would have seen my passion for what I do and like this kind of conversation we're having now, that they would have been like oh, she makes so much more sense. But like I wasn't making sense to people because they weren't seeing the deepest part of me and I wasn't sharing that. And so I think that's so interesting that you say like recognizing, like oh, not who I am, like that is going to feel out of alignment. Destination manifestation will be right back.
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Today, go to britneyhoopscom to learn more. So I'm so curious. Tell me about a time when maybe you didn't feel very aligned, you recognized this within yourself, you weren't being like who you know yourself to be, but you recovered and you got yourself to a better feeling place. I know you have a course called Defunk Yourself, like. Tell me. Like when did you defunk yourself and get yourself to a better feeling place?
Yeah, that's a great question. I think Big Brother would be the most obvious example, so I'm not going to use it.
Love it. Tell me something else.
Yeah, I think, like before we like hopped on here, you asked me like, is there anything I'm uncomfortable talking about, which the answer is obviously no, but you would ask me about like pain and stuff that I talk about. Yeah, so for people that are listening, after Big Brother, the beginning of 2020, well, I was on Big Brother in 2018, but in 2020 kind of COVID time I started experiencing very light pain in my jaw, but I had always, for the two years prior and starting a few months before I got on Big Brother, I had been like a teeth grinder at night, so I always knew that I oh, that was like the big thing in the Big Brother house.
We would be like Caitlin shut the fuck in the middle of the night Really, oh my God. Nelly would literally take my jaw in the middle of the night and just go like this and she would be like it's okay, I don't even know what I'm doing.
I used to be a teeth grinder too. I totally get that.
It's trauma that's coming out at night, so, whatever, it doesn't matter. I didn't realize and I never was in pain from it, so I'm like whatever In 2020,. I was like fuck, this kind of hurts a little bit. So I went to a dentist and got a mouth guard. But the thing with, like a mouth guard is that it protects your teeth. Right, you're still grinding your teeth at night, but, like, the dentist is just trying to protect your teeth, so it doesn't.
You're still moving the jaw, it still hurts, yeah.
So fast forward. Long story short. I moved back to New York from LA because it was COVID time and I wanted to be closer to my family. And I woke up one morning in January of 2021. And I knew I was grinding my teeth the night before and from that day up until somewhat recently, I was in pain every single day, every single day of my life the most chronic, severe, fucked up pain ever. And it wasn't, like you know, a normal, like back pain or whatever it's like in your face, right?
Face, Could you open your mouth? Like I remember once it was so bad I could barely open my mouth to put like a spoon in, Like I was like, oh yeah, I could bear the open.
So here's the thing when you have TMJ, there's different like levels to it. So some people have like they can get that lock jaw. I had the opposite. I had hyper mobility. So basically, my joints were not like connected well and it was just creating even more movement. So, essentially, pain just like radiates throughout my face, the back of my head, down my neck, my traps, everything, and it was literally the most.
In the beginning year it was so difficult to align myself because I felt tired and I felt exhausted and I was in pain and it's like it was very challenging to be kind and nice and to work with other people when, like, I'm dealing with my own thing and doctors don't know what to tell me.
But after getting used to it which just sucks, but, like you know, getting used to the fact that I need to create my own piece within this I just figured out what worked best for me to kind of like accept that, if I'm really under the belief that everything's happening for the highest good at any given moment, this doesn't not include this. So, once I was able to kind of like for me, getting back into alignment is changing my mindset and remembering what I know to be true, which is that, like every single thing that's happening is perfect, and I would just try to like ask myself every day, like what is the purpose of this pain, like how can I find purpose in this pain? And that was really kind of what got me through many years.
How did you find purpose in it? Like what was the answer to that question?
Honestly, I started meeting and gaining more clients that also dealt with chronic pain. So like having other people to like who didn't even have like the small foundation that I had of like mindset and kind of like giving them those tools and walking them through those things, like that was really healing and helpful. But I mean you just get to a point where, like, you have to ask yourself like do you want to be miserable Because the pain is not changing for the foreseeable future? So like I can either be miserable and in pain or I can be like really grossly delusionally positive and in pain. And if you're grossly delusionally positive, have you seen like all the ticktocks and reels that are like being delulu is the solulu.
Yeah, yeah yeah, I was delusional. I was literally like my pain, like I'm so I made a real about this the other day, but like I quite literally started telling myself that, like you know, god or the universe doesn't give you anything you can't handle and I'm going through so much right now and like he's flirting with me.
Oh my gosh, I can handle so much.
You really like I can tolerate this and like the world calling me like a racist slide and like, wow, thank you, you love me and that's how it works and it helps. Yeah, it just fucking helped.
Yeah, I mean that makes so much sense. So like, so say, there's somebody out there that is manifesting health. What, what? What does that look like? You just gave a great example there, like become delulu, like you just. And what I love about that too is like I literally had this on like such a micro moment. But I was going. I'm an introvert like at heart, like parties, you, I don't like them. I was going to party one day and I was like I can be a miserable like hermit in the corner at this party, or I can go to this party and I can just enjoy it like those are my two options. I'm going to the party. I'm like literally halfway there. I'm driving like and that just reminds me. It's like okay, I'm going to be in pain, like it's. Accepting this in this moment doesn't mean it can't shift, doesn't mean it can't change, doesn't mean you can't heal, but accepting what is in the moment. And then what are you bringing to it? Are there any other spiritual practices, mindset practices that you would advise someone who's manifesting health?
Yeah, well, that's a good point. Here's the thing like we need to. If you are someone that's also just like dealing with chronic pain or health anxiety, which is like a whole other fucking podcast for another time, because, like, aren't we all just like kind of hypo contracts in a way, we can get into another time. But like, yeah, if you are someone that is dealing with like long lasting pain, sickness, whatever, it's very easy for you to like give in to the limiting belief that, like you're going to wake up tomorrow or from your nap and you're still going to be in pain because that's what you've experienced every other fucking day. But if you're going to do that, if your mind naturally goes to the negative quote, unquote of like which you think you're a realist because you know this is the way it's been like you're really not impressing anyone, nobody like things. You're amazing because you guess right that you like woke up in pain.
Yeah, yeah.
And if you do let go of the limiting beliefs that like just because you've been in pain yesterday and the day before means that you're going to be in pain tomorrow. Like that's just not fucking true. Like you need to be absolutely optimistic every single day when you wake up. That like I could be okay in an hour, like that is a reality, that can exist for me. Like yeah, mindset has so much effect on the nervous system and the way your body is going to feel, so just try to acknowledge you having a limiting belief.
And if you're going to think negatively and you're going to think like I'm going to wake up tomorrow when we, in pain, force yourself to be like there's also a chance, I don't. There's also a chance I wake up tomorrow. And because I, you and I know this, like we can't tell someone to like just think positive. Like that's just like not going to happen. So you are naturally think negatively. Amazing, great, do that. But then also consider the other option, because we don't know what's not psychic. I mean, maybe you are. It's not relevant in this moment so yeah yeah, this tonight's going to fucking suck.
This party's going to suck. Stop. Be so aware of the way your mind is thinking and then be like there's also a chance. This party's fucking amazing and I like walk out with 10 times more friends like Brian. Do the back and forth, keep going back and forth in your mind of like one way and then another way.
Because if you're shutting out that possibility, then yes, you will be right. But again, no extra points for you, like no points for you In your life no one's excited for you, you're, you know you've created that.
So why not be open? And again, it's not going to be this like, oh, rainbows and sunshine. Like you're not going to go from zero to 100, but why not have the possibility open? That's why I love and I talk about all the time is this idea bridge thoughts, like, if you can't believe the thought just as it is, add on a tack on the little sentence that, like it might be true that I blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, or, like you know, find ways to kind of ease in to the thought, ease into the chance that there could be possibility. So, caitlin, here's something, and I feel like this can sometimes feel a bit like a conundrum for somebody. So we were talking about Accepting, like where you are in the present moment, like okay, yes, I'm feeling pain, it's right here. How can you accept but then also be open to the possibility that can it change? That it can change, like I know both those things can exist at the same time, but like, how do you reconcile them in your mind or with your client?
Honestly, it comes down to like changing your definition of pain. Like we are taught, like you know, you, the fucking doctors scraped your fucking leg. Like when you, at a certain point, we learned along the way that like a scrape, a cut, a scar, pain. We learned pain equals bad. Like pain equals sickness and sickness equals bad. And like when people are sick in the hospital and they can die and that's bad, we associate death with bad, we associate illness with bad. Like that is just what we learned and I've learned Through my own self over the last several years that pain does not equal bad, it doesn't equal good, but it doesn't equal bad. It doesn't, it doesn't equal anything, it just is.
And I think that when people have the belief, like I do, like everything's happening for the highest good at every given moment, it doesn't mean that we're gonna be happy.
Like it doesn't Mean that the thing we're experiencing is gonna be like Overwhelming joy and excitement. But that's life like we are. We are going to experience so many different things and they're not good or bad, or happy or sad or whatever it is, they just are. So when I like kind of detached from, I'm in pain, doctors can't figure out what's wrong with me, like I created that story as like this is terrible, and like no one can help me and nobody knows what's wrong with me and this is awful and this is bad. And I just kind of like realized I don't even remember when or one day or how but I just kind of was like I'm so sick, of like Putting this feeling behind it, like I'm already in pain, right, like I don't need to now also be like mad that I'm in pain, or I just like kind of like accepted it and surrendered and I'm just like, yeah, I am experiencing pain tonight.
That's it, like I'm not adding more things on to it that like layer of suffering that just pokes at the existing pain and inflames it so much more. I mean like maybe in a physical literally mentally, in a mental sense, to like that layer of suffering, of judgment of the pain, or judgment of yourself for having the pain, or Judgment of the doctors for not being able to identify the pain or whatever it might be. Just that fires it up so much more.
Yeah so much more.
So that's interesting. Okay, so if you remove that layer and then it just is and you're not having a thought that's judging it, you're just letting it be, then that opens up your mind to possibility that it could continue to be. It could not continue to be. There's all this like you're just so much more open because the judgment isn't clouding and locking anything in Exactly and if we're in the market of like manifesting, which is like what you're doing.
yeah, I'm very Like strong wills on the fact that we, you, can manifest anything.
But I try very hard to try to manifest, and actively manifest in a way where I'm not actually manifesting An outcome and I'm manifesting an experience to get to a particular outcome.
So, like when I'm in pain, like because again, I want to continue on a path that is for the highest good, for my deepest spiritual development, and that might fucking mean that I need to be in pain so a little bit longer and I don't want to be judgmental of that potential outcome. So instead I'll like, if I'm really suffering one day and I'm like really having an on my knees moment where I'm like in so much pain, I will ask God or the universe, or whatever you want to believe in, for an, an opportunity. The universe, please provide me the opportunity to feel better. What does that mean? Whether it's manifesting, maybe that'll be a doctor, maybe that'll be me hearing a podcast where someone says something that shifts my mindset, or there will be times it'll be like allow me the creative solution so that I can see this differently. Like, yeah, you can sit here and try to like manifest the 750 or the, this money or the A singular outcome, a singular how, or yeah.
To be honest, who am I to know if that's really what is the best thing for me to have? So, like I can want to win big brother and I could and I had been saying that too before going on. I'm like I've been manifesting this win since I was a kid. I'm fucking sure in my head, but like, really, it's like I don't want what's not mine. So it's like if I leave it open to the possibility of, like I'm manifesting a creative outcome or a creative new mindset or whatever, that means I can end up with 10 million, that means I can end up with a different math. Like who fucking knows? I just want what's meant for me. So, yeah, that's really the best way I can explain that mindset.
Yeah, oh, I love that. So there's also something else and I'm curious if you experiences or if your clients have experiences I know I've had clients that had that when we get something, a diagnosis, when we're dealing with some sort of health thing, how do we not let that infiltrate our sense of identity or like take it on so much, I know even this, I PCOS. It's like I've been doing so much work on being like, okay, I might have PCOS. This might be a physical diagnosis of physical symptom of these things, but I am not PCOS. You know what I mean. Like you are not TMJ, like you know these things, you can have the pain, but you are not the pain. Like I'm curious any advice you might have for someone that might be noticing that they're identifying too strongly with the thing. Like, how do we separate identity and these health things?
Yeah, the thing about my mindset and where I can help people is if you already have a foundation of like some sort of spiritual like a spiritual foundation to begin with. Yeah, because there's a lot of people that can be experiencing pain and chronic illness and identity of that thing, and they might hear what I'm saying and it might not resonate, and that's where I respectfully say then go to another person, because my outlook is not necessarily for everyone. But I do find that when you are experiencing something like chronic pain or a diagnosis, or someone close to you dies or whatever, there is that human part of us that, even if you're a total pessimist or a Senate or an atheist or whatever yeah, something like that happens. There's this little crack that happens to literally every single client I've ever had that maybe didn't register as a spiritual person, where you are so willing to do anything or to believe anything because you're so fucking desperate to feel and that is normal and natural to have faith in something you want to feel better. You are willing to believe or hear or to do anything.
But if you are someone that does already have the spiritual foundation and have this belief of what you are or who you are. I take it back to like before you were exposed to Earth and you're just this little baby thing, and before you were in physical form, you were a soul and that's who you are. You are your soul, but the physical human body that we have, it's just what we're, it's our vessel to experience our life. Yeah, and you were given that body for a particular reason these little quirks and illnesses and this, and that you were given that strategically to deepen your spiritual foundation here. So, like, if you're not under that belief, then I'm sorry. Like this is unhelpful to you.
Yeah.
But you might be listening and you might not resonate with it now, but maybe at some point you will, or maybe never, it makes no difference to me, but that's how I separate it. I am not Caitlyn, you know. I have TMJ X, Y and Z. I'm Caitlyn and I've been experiencing TMJ and TMJ symptoms. That's just a part of the human body design that I am living out. But I'm also open to the possibility that that's probably going to go away and I might get something else at another point.
Like this is just my vessel and it's going to go through a lot of trials and tribulations because it's complicated as fuck. But my soul's intact and there's nothing. There's no PCOS, TMJ, whatever that is not going to even like your soul's here, your body's here. They can't even like, they can't even mingle ever, and there's nothing you can do that would make it intermingle. So as long as you just keep having a visual in your head of like those are just two separate things and this thing, the soul, is actually the thing that is real and this thing is temporary. It just makes it easier.
Yeah, oh, I so 100% agree with that. I think it's remembering that right and I hope, regardless of what you know, again, if it isn't of your belief, then that isn't going to resonate with you, but if it does resonate with you, sometimes it's just remembering that coming back home to that, being like, oh yeah, I've been kind of like thinking I was this but I'm actually that.
You know, like I am the soul part but I've been identifying with the physical part, like just remembering that and you know also, though it's like normal to identify, like, let's be clear, like I although I totally believe that you know, the physical is temporary and we don't actually die, there's just this part of us is gone, like doesn't change the fact that, like, I'm going to get Botox and I'm going to get my hair colored and like I'm still a human form right now and you want to respect that too.
Like, aside from that, like the insides, your organs, your, the, what you put into your body, it's like it's so fucking important, like how you respect the vessel even when it's not working, because, like it's still your opportunity to be here. Like we don't want to totally shit on it, but no, it kind of reminds me.
This may not like totally land up just to give this in real time, but like it kind of feels like you know, like a car like your dream car that you have. Like I mean, it is a vessel of transportation. Like you would care for your car, you'd make sure it gets maintenance. You might really want a beautiful, certain kind of car. You might want your car to look a certain way. You might this or that like taking care of your car is going to be able to get you to other places. But like are you the car? Like no, you're the, you're the spirit that's in the car. Like you're in the car, right, exactly, you would have a really good example.
Like it doesn't define you the car and you are not. The car isn't morphing into your soul. You don't want a car soul. Like what the fuck are you talking about? Like these are just all things you can do.
No car souls here, yeah and that's the shit even if you're someone that experiences like jealousy whether you want to admit it or not, but we all fucking do if you see someone that's further in their career or make some more money than you or has things that you don't have. Someone has a child, someone just gave their pregnancy announcement which I'm first killing you because there's 10 million right now going on in the world. They, you know.
I actually I've. Can I just say something real quick with that? I wanted to hear what you said, that I actually have gotten to a really good place. I view all kids, as I don't want to say as my own, like I'm not, like you know, like out there kidnapping, like you know, but like I give the energy of like any baby that I see.
I'm like, oh, like, yeah, like so yeah, anyways, I don't mean to interrupt you, but yeah, no, but I used to not feel that way.
For sure I could. I could understand that, but like yeah, no matter what's going on.
Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt you, no, no, no, it was that, like we all have our moments where, you know, we struggle with this jealousy of of anything and everyone, and it's like to that I would say, like you, your soul and that person's soul are so a lot, they're so similar and everything else. The bodies are what makes us different, like it's the bodies, it's the things we have, but they don't have something that you don't have. You guys both have the same thing.
Yeah, both have sold, it's all the other and the possibility, like we're talking about before, of the infinite possibilities that could be there. Like I love that's. That's something that I love. Like I literally I'll follow PCOS accounts and PCOS pregnancy success stories because I'm like I want to be inundated and reminded of so many women who have this, this diagnosis that I have, that still get pregnant and have beautiful families, and like I want to see that reminder every day and I want to celebrate those people. And because it's like there is infinite possibility. Like I am not closing myself off to any possibilities because of any label that was slapped on, anything you know.
Like maybe label was slapped on my car like my car can still go Right, exactly.
And it's like you with the PCOS. It's like, yeah, we know the statistics, like we know how that affects your body, or physical body, but like again, I am under the belief that like the soul bond was already created. So it's like your physical body is so fucking irrelevant in the it's. So I mean it's, it's the vessel it's going to get from one thing to another, but like the way in which it happens, or how it happens, or I mean like it's just you don't, it's so not your business, like it's going to happen.
I so believe that too. Have you ever looked into it? And probably, if this isn't like the phase of life that you're in right now or anything but like spirit baby stuff, have you have, like, ever heard of anything? Well, there's this book. I think it's Walter McKinnon. I'd have to look, I'll link to it, but it's called Spirit Babies.
Oh my gosh, when you get to this part of your life, caitlin, if this is a part of life that you want to experience Spirit Babies. I so recommend this book because it talks about that. It talks about the soul contract and how, even in cases of, like adoption or things like that, like you still have a soul contract, it just the vessel of the biological mother was. It might not be you and I, like I so resonate with that and like, of course, like I'm a spiritual girl, like I connect with the souls of my children and like I know it, I know it's just, like it's a divine timing all around. It's a divine timing for me, but it's also a divine timing for them and like, when do they want to enter this world and what they're meant to do?
and I don't know it's so beautiful. I agree, first of all, I'm sure I'm gonna love that book but, like, even though I'm not at a place where I think I'm ready to have children, I also feel like I connect with, like my unborn kids all the time, like I'm never not. I know that that was a contract that was signed between me and whoever it is, however many. And, to be honest, like I don't know if this is going to resonate with you, I'm sure it will. I don't even have a partner right now.
Yet A lot of the things that I do in my life, I like try to ask myself, like is this something that, like, my kids can be proud of? Like and not not even it? Like listen, I have an only fan, so I'm not here saying like, oh, they're gonna be proud of that. I mean, like is this something that my child is gonna like that I'm doing, that is gonna create like a bet? I'm always considering them and it's so psychotic because, like, I don't even know who they are or what they are or how they are or how they're coming.
But I just feel like anybody that is wanting a kid one day would, like I don't think most people think about like the actual thing, like the spirit side of it, where it's like it's all you, you guys, already did that, like you met, you already did that, and guess what if you didn't? That's also very purposeful and you'll know one day down the road, when that time comes, why you're if. But like if your desire to be a mom, you're gonna be a mom. Like there's nothing that's gonna prevent that. You've already decided.
Yeah, oh man, you're giving me like full body goosebumps, like all tearing up because, like, I do so resonate with that Like and that was a huge part that the the the beautiful side of not the like on alert and like playing a game and making it life or death side of Big Brother, that like is the shadow side, but the beautiful side of the Big Brother experience was was knowing that, was playing that game and be like, oh man, my kids are going to be so proud of mom one day when they look and they're like, wow, what a badass. Like look, how far you got. Like look, you won these things. Like all these odds were against you and you made it so far. Like I do deeply, deeply feel that, which is, you know, kind of beautiful.
But can we play? Can we play a quick like manifestation moment with you like? Yeah, I would go without any fear, getting in the way without any, any judgment in your gut. How many kids do you feel like you're having?
Oh, two, two which is funny because this is like super woo, but people are here for it. Like three spirits come through but there's like one of them has continually said like I am not ready, and I'm not ready for like a long time, and like it might not be this lifetime, like I'm like they're like really far back, but like two were like ready to go. And then one's like really like see you away later, kind of thing but yeah, we're gonna refer back to this when something happens.
No, totally Like it's, and you said it so quickly.
Like it's conversations, communications. I have daily Like, and that's what that's when I like, when I think about like I'm always talking about like embodying your manifested me, Like the version of you who is who you wanna be and has the life you wanna have. Like my manifested me is a mom and so I operate from that place. Like I am a mom right now my kids aren't physically here yet, but like I am, you know, Like, and why I get emotional talking about it is because it's like it not from a place of sadness, but a place of such deep knowing.
Yeah, it's like, yeah, I am, you know and I feel like anybody. You know we were talking a lot about you know kids, cause you guys know, if you wanna listen to the show, that that's the journey I'm on right now, but like it can really apply to anything when you just know, at that deepest level, it does help with the divine timing when I'm not getting caught up in the game of things which I'm like letting go, like it's just like I could just be. This can just be as it is because I am, and so however that shakes out is how it shakes out. It's what's meant for my highest good and their highest good too. You know, I don't want my children pressure to come in at a time that they're not ready for.
No, their soul needs to be ready too. Yeah.
So, caitlin, I wanna ask you kind of one final question to wrap this up. Like, dream with me here, like, what is your manifested me? What is manifested, caitlin, right now? What are you dreaming up? Like, what do you hold? We were talking so much about what holds in the future for me. What's the future got in store for you? What?
do you know, I think that I have been on this like healing journey for the last five years. That has been really individual and I've been. I was in a relationship for five years that ended when I was on Big Brother because I was emotionally cheating on him with one of my house guests, which is like so great, and because of that I felt like I wanted to be single for almost the amount of time that I was like in that relationship. So, although I've had like flings and like hookups and stuff, nothing's been serious because I've just been trying to prepare this best version of myself, not only for myself but like for my future person, because they deserve to meet the most authentic part of me and I deserve to give that and like to be that for someone. And I think, yeah, I think I'm finally at a point where I'm accepting and ready to meet someone.
So, in whichever way that comes like, I'm excited for partnership and what that feels like as an aligned person and also just that's gonna be such a different experience too, like just, I mean, just that experience is gonna be so beautiful.
I know it's gonna be really different and like I'm excited for that. And then, if we're gonna go deeper, like I just I wanna buy a house on the beach one day. I wanna just be like what beach? What are we calling in? I don't know. I think Malibu. I just wanna be airy and floaty on the beach and with my crystals and with a family, and just happy.
Yeah, just happy. I love that. I love that so much. Well, thank you, caitlin, for everything. All your wisdom I mean that's the best way I can describe it. It's just like it's just wisdom, just knowing. I appreciate you just sharing it with us, so thank you.
Thank you for having me Of course For having me.
Me too, me too. Yeah, take a step back.
Awesome, wasn't that so good?
Here's what I love about Caitlin. What I love about Caitlin is that she just tells it how that is Like she doesn't like have any of this Like I feel like sometimes I hopefully this isn't me, but I've encountered this with some coaches before where it's like this air of like I have everything figured out and I am the only one who has the answers to anything, and it's just like that's such a load of BS. I know I don't try to be that way. You guys would have to call me out if I ever am, and Caitlin definitely isn't that way either and I think that's the best way, because it just reminds you that we're all just figuring this stuff out. And what's so beautiful about being a coach like Caitlin is, like I am is that we're able to help other people through this and then share that knowledge with everybody. So I just wanna thank you, travelers, for joining us here today on our journey towards destination manifestation. You are awesome, and if you haven't done so already, be sure to subscribe to the podcast so you can catch every new episode that comes out.
And there's one other thing that I would really love you to do after listening to today's episode, and it's this go to your Apple podcast app, pull up the destination manifestation show, scroll down where you can write a review. Type up a real, honest, quick review there and take a screenshot of it on your phone. Then I'd like you to send that review to me. You can either DM me I'm at brithoops on Instagram or you can send me an email. I'm britney at britneyhoopscom and just let me know. Hey, this is the review that I posted and I will send you a destination manifestation ball cap for free as a thank you. Isn't that nice? All music for this podcast is by AQ and I'll catch you next time. I don't know, I don't know. I don't know. I don't know the way for me To go as it is.
